Archive for February, 2010

I am my own person.

I have been thinking for some time now about why I believe what I believe. Is it because I have seen the undeniable truth about the given subject through others’ experiences? experienced it myself? Read it some where and thought, ‘Oh… that makes sense!’ or did I come to the conclusion by some  deep and extensive exploration into the subject?

After thinking about this for some time and paying attention to how I come to certain conclusions and make decisions, I have realised that I believe what I believe because of  my up bringing. I never thought through my decisions based on me and what I want to do, I only did what I knew was expected of me.

This was not a bad thing as it cut down drastically on getting into trouble, however, I found that I could not defend me and my reasoning, because there was none, I also found that I did not have my own personality, our opinions on things. If someone would ask me about my thoughts on some controversial topic, boy, would I be torn. Therefore I made myself invisible. I figured, if I’m not noticed, I won’t be asked uncomfortable questions and people will have no reason to find me out. Not a good place to be.

Fast forward to the present, I have grown somewhat. As a result, I live by new rules. Those include only doing what I feel is right through God’s guidance and feel pressed to do, not on other people’s expectations of me.

After all, though we are one in the body of Christ, It is our individual talents and being that help us work so well together. This way I can defend what I believe and maybe bring someone to my way of think for once.

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